She says, “You’ve got this”, a phrase that my mentor uses and it carries so much power for me. In fact those three words are the reason I was able to lose 15 lbs and inches to pass my physical fitness test in 2016 when I was struggling and avoiding the truth. On a quick check in she texted me those words and it gave me the energy to move. Those words gave me the courage to go against the self doubting bitch in my head aka fear to sit in the seat and do my first session as a Medium and then start this practice. That took real Lady Balls. Powerfull.
She says, “I hope for you that you know how strong you are.” The greatest takeaway I have from serving 20 years and being in a pressure cooker for so long is that “I know how strong I am.” I repeated this frequently my last year in the Navy. I shared it so often during co-worker conversations and in my retirement speech to remind others that they have had a platform to realize their strength too. It is such a powerful gift to take with you. I also needed to be reminded of that because today I am finding my strength again and Wonder Woman'ing the F-UP!
On stage Rachel says, “If I had walked away from all of the things that threw my husband off, or didn’t like or understand, or actively told me to stop doing we would not be in this (conference) room right now.” It has been a process for my husband to see me in this new role. He was not surprised when I told him because through the 19 years we have been together he has witnessed the unexplainable things I’ve seen or heard or just known. As a true protector and loyalist he wants to minimize as much judgement, hate, disrespect and negativity that is likely to come my way. He wants to protect our children and this life we have worked hard to build. He is not wrong. With that need to protect many blocks to progress have been put up and limitations on sharing my gift and practice with others on a large scale. This has been difficult because after finishing her session a great friend once told me after I explained I wasn't planning on sharing on Facebook that, ”Anj, you have always done things big.” So true. These words were powerfully relevant.
My surface WHY is that I want to serve others, I have my whole life, it is what I am here to do, my purpose. I have a huge heart and need to share it. I want my children to understand themselves as sensitives so that they will understand when they have unexplainable experiences too. My deeper WHY is because I know that if I lose one of my children or my husband who is my best friend and MY person in this life that I would want someone with the true gift of mediumship to have the courage to share their gift and help me find connection and light in the darkness of grief. I have seen the faces of the children waiting to get a message across. I have the ability to be that person. I also don’t want to be on the other side of this life seeing that I missed the whole point of me living it because I myself, or the ones around me were afraid and lived small. That is the strength of MY WHY. Have YOU found yours?
